My Mind is Full of Warnings

I used to work in the office of a little mom and pop type bakery, next to a Bostonian woman in her 60s who was everything I aspired to be when I turned 35: unquestionable sense of style, bright and clever wit even when she was frustrated, great family she worked hard to keep together (see aforementioned bright and clever wit), and an amazing musical repertoire. We used her phone as our radio, and maybe it's because she married the singer in a band that played along the same time as Aerosmith, or maybe it's just an aspect of the human soul that goes deeper than my own understanding but her taste in music was somehow identical to mine, except broader. She'd play the Pop Divas and Hipsters of today (Lady Gaga, Beyonce, Bruno Mars, Haim, Wild Belle, Magic!), but she'd play the greats of "Before My Time" too. The only time she ever sang along was to Mo'Town, and she knew every last word. Between tallying croissants and bear claws I'd record snippets of songs in music discovery apps or Google lyrics to songs she'd played that brought back memories of...I just don't know when. 

One day she played Fleetwood Mac's "Dreams" and I squirreled it away and played it again and again for a week. I confessed to my roommate Kenice that I'd developed a habit of playing it on repeat and without missing a beat she said, "That's depressing." And as much as I would like to put the lyrical complexities of Fleetwood Mac and Stevie Nicks in particular aside to discuss the kind of personality traits that would flower repetitive music interests, that was exactly what she was talking about. It's no feel-good upper. It's a serious song. It's not a cheer; it's a warning. I was playing a warning over and over again. 

But here's the thing; I've been watching this show lately that featured Stevie Nicks as a guest as well as played several of her songs throughout the season and even though I binge watched the show in the course of two evenings I've had the songs stuck in my head for the past week. In any given silent moment, I can hear Stevie's voice singing "Wait a minute baby, stay with me a while..." and "She is like a cat in the dark and then she is the darkness..."